February 10th, 2022
Goodness, reflecting on the year, February 10th to February 10th, or, seeing that I am switching how I celebrate the passage of a set of seasons, the Hawaiian new Year, and now the Chinese New Year. Was there growth? Where did I go? What did I do? Can I remember that far? I could remember by my letters to Leilani, and perhaps it would be good to go through those and re-read them. It was sure to have time in nature, I had a consistent rhythm of attending groups with the Self-Help community, and a consistent rhythm of working with Sarah, and a consistent rhythm with my Shamanic meetup group, and did not enroll in any classes, or did I? Was last year the classes, or was it the year before. It was in 2020 I believe, after my dark night of the soul. I went from student to practicing and learning and growing. There were art classes with people I love, and finding BREEMA! There was the shock of the loss of my psychiatrist, and also, discovering that my mental health diversion was complete. My disability came through and that was amazing. I was able to visit my sister again, going down to see her first at, gosh, what is the name of that place? and then at La Paz, several times, and receiving some wonderful letters and sending her many letters and gifts. There was the gorgeous trip to Kauaʻi and the purchase of a Hawaiian calendar. There was the beginning of Hawaiian studies! Wow, just last year, and already, I am beginning to be able to speak it, which motivates me to work harder. I studied 36 different languages on Duolingo! Wow, Iʻd like to do that again. There were trips locally to the trails we love, but then, the fire, and no trips to these trails that we love and going more local. There was putting in an organic garden and growing things. Oh goodness, lots to celebrate and know! Today, Breema, yoga, voice, slack key, Hawaiian studies, Duolingo studies, garden, water the backyard, lift weights, acting in the evening, therapy.